給我的寶貝

This is my wish for you:

Smileys to come when sadness intrudes,

Rainbows to follow the clouds,

Sunset to warm your heart,

Laughter to kiss your lips,

Hugs when spirits sag,

Faith so that you can believe,

Confidence for your doubts,

Courage to know yourself

And my love to complete your life.

And I think

damage that I had caused was done. Can do nothing but just to await what lies ahead of me.

Very often I think of myself as being the rash one and taking it out on any possible avenue but this time, I certainly had not done the wisest of things. Reflection had been taking place these past few days, as I reminisce of the good times.

I can say that things had not been going pretty well of late, and that I’ve been trying to smile more in hope of washing away the undesirable experiences and feelings. I am trying very hard to embrace my current situation now and words that I hear prick me real hard every time. Things that I do are just so undesirable to people.

I apologise to all whom I have hurt in the process lately. I am trying to get out of this so just give me some time yups.

最後還是要說這句話 – 請你不要不理睬我好嗎。我已經很難受了而今晚又不盡落淚了。我真的很懷念那個暑假。我們再回到那個時光好嗎？真的很想你。

On a tired Saturday night

It’s only 2 weeks away from the end of internship and I am feeling kind of burnt out at the moment already. Perhaps I really need that longbreak as what my friends had always said. Just to take sometime off to chill and take things a bit more easily.

All I need is a bit more encouragement in the things that I have no been doing well in. Where thou’ can this encouragement come from?

Feels bad

Now usually I don’t do this but hell yeah when I write it means that I’m really feeling bad:-

Perhaps I shouldn’t have been so outright direct and be insensitive to how you feel.

- I should have remembered about the wine and reminded you.

- I should have paid more attention to the little details on the things about you.

Hands are trembling and numb after a long day at training and totally worn out but I can’t help but feel what I could have done better. The series of events that took place this week leading up to the festive season has set my spirits low, with all the disregard for the upcoming new year. This is no good, but it just seems that I haven’t done a good job as a bf and this is really depressing.

I am so so sorry for what I have inadequately performed in and I really hope that you can give me the chance to care for you and make up for the wrong that I did. I want to be there to give you encouragement and be the one for you..

Post SPC engagement

This is the first entry ever since the welcome 2009 note. Figured out that work as a auditor is really super busy and there’s hardly anytime to write at all. So while thanking my lucky stars that I do not have to go back for work this weekend, I think its better to write while plugging into retro 無印良品 songs .

Talking to Yi Ling have made me realise that university days have made me grow up, especially with the out of the classroom learning experience at the archery ground. It is there where I found my beloved, made good friends and obtained a sidekick in wiwi.

And worklife has made me value the weekends even more, knowing that I have to spend it more wisely now. Now I’m really thankful that I have taken up this internship – for it having to teach me more things.

Jump into 2009

Woke up on the morning of 2009 to be greeted by wordpress.

Perhaps it is good to have some new year resolutions:

1. Ace my GPA – last semester was good, but the coming year can be better. 

2. Bank Internship!

3. Improved shooting – the last few months were good, but the next few month’s gotta be even better with the upcoming competitions.

4. More job opportunities to earn money.

5. Quality time with bunny.

Don’t wanna ask for too much and I promise to be a good boy for the aforementioned list of wishes to happen =)

On the last day of 2008

So here I am on my annual review of the year on the final night of the year.

To start off, it has been a trophy-less year and I certainly have to do better next year hahas.

It was supposed to be mahjong night tonight but everyone’s too busy so we decided to put it off to tomorrow morning. Hmm..perhaps I should consider organising a potluck at my place next year…

The day was spent Buffy at Ma Maison, a restaurant located in the corner of Bugis junction. Have finally managed to get to try out this French-Japanese cuisine which Fiona had mentioned and boy oh boy, at the very least I’m impressed by their omu rice and hamburger steak! It was a long but good lunch and the ambience was just right for us to hang out long enough. They were meticulous and paid details to toasting the bread before serving it, while serving quality butter and jam.

Spent the rest of the day walking around bugis junction and my girlfriend was teasing me non-stop over my (mis)prediction of shoe prices while having to handle the groggy winston lim over the phone. He was complaining that he got a back ache from the horse riding, attributed to the fact that he had the fiercest horse around. Hahas god knows what he had done to the horse?!

And yes, the year in review. Well it had been a good year indeed in terms of academic achievements, sports, social and spirital development. Have learnt more along the way while working so it was definitely a good thing! Gained a lot (along with gaining weight haiii) and really hope that next year will be a even better year.

Here’s to my family, girlfriend, sec school clique, team mates and friends. A great 2009 ahead!

Who says no job opportunities?

In the face of the glocal financial crisis and companies preparing to cushion themselves for another impact of a Wall Street crash in view of the impending bankruptcy of GM and Chrysler, companies are currently freezing employee headcount. I spoke to my senior these few days and while they were considering switching over to another line, the fact that it is difficult to find a job now means that they have to hold onto their current job. Be grateful that you are not one of those who are being called into the HQ office and receiving the white slip.

On the lighter side, there are still places that are still hiring! Look at the advert below:

- WE ARE HIRING! -

(so what if global financial markets are not doing well?)

Company background

Global MNC – you can find us in almost every corner of the world

High market capitalization aka industry leader – we win our competitors in terms of number of branches

High revenue and sales growth – we earn more money than our competitors

High asset turnover ratio – we make use of our assets very well

Sustained corporate growth – we open more branches than our competitors

Recognised and laudable  CSR structure – we let people know (recognised) that we are doing good and people say we are good (laudable)

Job description

Facing clients of (high) net worth daily

Dynamic working environment requiring constant interaction with people from all levels of the corporation

Applicant must be well equipped with financial knowledge

Promoting structured assets/products to clients

Managerial prospects

Interested? For application, simply walk down to your nearest McDonald’s outlet to apply for the counter boy/girl position.

First audit engagement

kena laughed at by seniors when I asked for work to do.

As usual accomplished work much faster than usual, but still can’t help much coz I’m still pretty much lost as well to haa. Well..things wont be easy from this week onwards and glad that I was skiving away at training last week lol. Kind of smart to ‘take a few more breaks’ before you don’t get the chance to do so.

Well…it’s still pretty much the same thing being kind of blur on your first day and going around asking questions, except this time I have to run around the client’s place to make my queries haa. Only that lunch break is now 30 minutes and there is no time for rest. To solve this problem, all one needs to do is just to go to the toilet cubicle, close the door and nap away for a good 10 minutes and you are good to go again!

Some habits (ie. toilet break) just don’t change hahhas

Procastination

is termed as you want to do something but keep putting it off until a later date because you know next time sure got time to do it one.

For example, my grades for the last module that is yet to be released and I’m still happily sitting in front of my computer refreshing my smu vista every few hours. The prof will release it soon i know it…

Putting off buying more business wear and trying to (mis)match my ties with my shirts.  Can la, intern only mah..not as if i’m some forex trader at barclays.

Putting off buying my PS3. Eh at least I got go and google on cheaper PS3 prices la. 

The aforementioned examples and supporting statements are classic examples of how a person can procastinate effectively without having to feel any sense of guilt or urge to overcome his wrongdoings.

I can write somemore but I can continue and write later after I finish playing my Pro Evolution Soccer 9…