It is rare to pen it out in english but when this does happen..very often than not it is when really bad things do happen.
This is all that can happen for SMU Archery Team.
It is really weird as to how difficult it can be to fix supposedly an outing and yet incur the wrath of many in the team. As the team captain, it is certainly the worst nightmare that can ever happen when the team members fall out with one another.
All I can say is that different people have different priorities in life and there is absolutely no need for one to impose their thinking on other people. Let them do what they want, coz that’s what they deem to be important to them at that point in time.
It really pains to see your loved one get bullied while you stand there helpless, not even being able to mutter a word simply because of the capacity of the captain. It pains to see the team senior blow up, taking it out on everyone. Team spirit is crucial to a team success, yet all the hard work I had done to foster good relations amongst every member seems to have been undone by a casual msn conversation. It is at times like this when my faith in the team has wavered, while offers from other clubs ring in my head, inching me closer to the exit door of SMU Archery.
Why the sarcasm? Why the insensitivity? I do not see why the need to take it out on other people when things are not running your way and you do not like the way it is. There are no need for personal attacks launched at people and the jacking issue is getting out of hand. Yes, it may be fun, but not everyone has the same tolerance level like some people do.
The individualistic nature of this sport does not have the team spirit and dynamics like sports such as basketball do, so people tend to think for themselves. Eyeing the budget, not willing to fork out money for school items fearing that the school will owe you money, thinking that the school is hindering your progress..all these ugly side of people..selfishness..shows up as time passes.
I feel the segregation from the team now..as the year has passed. I am merely helping out only as a ‘quick fix’ guy where ppl come to me just to get their equipment done up or have special requests. The interaction with the team members is reduced…and this is not what I am looking for in a team.
Why for then, am I working so hard, for a club that seemed doomed for internal struggle? Wouldnt I be better off just shooting, representing PPCC,PREAC or TBAC? There is no one ready to fill the role of captaincy and the candidates seem disinterested. Why for then, am I slogging so hard, pleasing everyone and yet not making things happy for myself? Am I really the silly one in the process, being made use of while others ascend?
If any SMU Archer were ever to chance this entry, I hope that you will understand my pain and disappointment of the way things turned out to be. It is not that I want to leave the club in search of trophies and medals, but it is with such a heavy heart that I leave behind that I have failed to achieve what I had set out to do – fostering team spirit.
Probably the person I feel most apologetic towards will have to be Winston, who has to accept my decision and cope with the situation in time to come. He’s been a great dude, who has to tolerate my nonsense at times while having to deal with so many issues concurrently. Sorry dude, probably you had known that I will leave the team someday but I guess you probably had not guessed that it will be so soon.
My passion is scarred. This sport to me, will no longer involve anymore management issues. I just want to shoot well and with shoot a clear mind. My apologies to SMU Archery, that the captain has lost faith and will be leaving.