Now usually I don’t do this but hell yeah when I write it means that I’m really feeling bad:-

Perhaps I shouldn’t have been so outright direct and be insensitive to how you feel.

- I should have remembered about the wine and reminded you.

- I should have paid more attention to the little details on the things about you.

Hands are trembling and numb after a long day at training and totally worn out but I can’t help but feel what I could have done better. The series of events that took place this week leading up to the festive season has set my spirits low, with all the disregard for the upcoming new year. This is no good, but it just seems that I haven’t done a good job as a bf and this is really depressing.

I am so so sorry for what I have inadequately performed in and I really hope that you can give me the chance to care for you and make up for the wrong that I did. I want to be there to give you encouragement and be the one for you..