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最近學會了‘managing expectations’ 這句話。縂覺得這句話，不但可以在工作場合用得到，也可以在朋友，家人等用到的。
很多時候，我們往往期待著對方能達到我們對他們所定的目標。但是人總是已自己，第一個人立場來觀察事件的。這自然而然的，就會轉變成我們要求別人辦事的程度。但是很多時候儘管對方怎麽做，總是有幾次是無法達到你所要求的，而使你感到失望。失望接下來就是失落的心情，就一直感到心裡的那個刺拔不出來似的。
何不嘗試想想看，對方是多麽的努力。那些幕後花絮，有誰了解呢？
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(另一話）
男主角筆下寫著：
驚喜~就留到一周月那天~
所謂的迷慌，就是渴望能在這個煙霧裡尋找出路。
是要自己發掘的，還是需要多一個援手，照亮出明確的道路？
會拿挪威的霧來比，可不是沒理由而這麽做的。挪威的霧裡充滿了許多的玄機，許多的迷惑，總是讓人懊惱而感到無助。
很多時候，身邊能有多一個人為你指出去向或許能減輕你的負擔，除掉你的煩惱。儅這個人伸出援手時，請勿畏縮而退去。想想看，不妨有個伴，和你一起走出這個灰暗。説不定那個人也是很需要你的喔~兩個人的力量，往往超出只限于你一個人的宇宙的能力。
紅塵裡飄灑的淚水已被微風奪去了。農霧也逐漸的散開了。眼睛已不被綫似的疑惑掩蓋了。明亮的道路僅在你的腳步下，沸騰著，叫出你踏出第一步‘嗒’的聲音~~~~
是傷感，憂傷，失落，還是愧疚感？
*我想，也大概是全部匯集在一起的吧。這無與倫比的痛和煩惱。。。很想現在就能全部說出來，然後睡掉一切的煩惱*
即使自己再射得好，水準還是和國手相差太大了。那天director所說的盡力而爲的話好像在這個世界裡不存在似了。這個世界就是以強者所霸有的。
我隊在這個周末的兩項比賽全部敗北，全軍覆沒。原本以爲能有所作爲的，但到頭來還不是被打回原型，變成了一向來都無法成功的隊伍。是我身為隊長的失敗嗎？表面上能替隊友感到驕傲的我心裡有許多的痛楚說不出來。眼睜睜的看到隊友一而再的被打下來。。心裡有許多的不滿但是卻處於在無能爲力的狀態。攷，這個隊長，真的需要反省一下。
父親腳腂受傷了，行動不便。要陪他去看醫生卻被他冷酷的拒絕了。要幫他做一點事情卻只能受氣，聼進一堆敷衍的話。他行動不便，卻叫了個遠方的親戚來幫他。自己的兒子難道在他的心裡沒有個地位嗎？正當我想幫他做一點事情的時候，我的一番好意被他像狂風橫掃過稻田似的打翻了。難道，身為父親的你不能再接受你兒子的一番好意嗎？
粗心的我，坏了娜娜的心情。那麽明顯的暗示，在我疲憊的身心下卻領悟不出來。酸酸的心情湧了出來，逐漸的彌漫了全身。心裡一直牽挂著娜娜，很希望能聽到她的聲音，看到她的笑容，觸碰到她的心。很指望的想了解她的心意，但卻被自私和糊塗的自己矇住了雙眼。不被理睬的感覺，的確是很不好受的。但是只能告訴自己：就像‘煙熏’裡的男主角，在下一個車站等待著她的到來。
不知去向的他抱著失落的心情在人群中孤獨的走著。守在手機旁等待著那一個簡訊，那一通電話。他知道抱歉是無價值的，而言語不能代表一切。他寧願用舉止代表一切，用舉止證明他心裡想要說的。他抱著疲憊和被打敗的省心，一步一步慢慢的走進他的房間裡，把自己鎖在‘人文本子’的世界裡。
今天，那個男主角又回來了。
It’s probably the only long weekend ahead of this long internship. Last night was great!: watching What Happened in Vegas with nana-chan while munching away on Bratwursts and soup that we smuggled in hurhurhur. And we ate mushroom and cheese crepe after the movie somemore!
We’ve also shortlisted these MUST WATCH movies:
1) Get Smart
2) The Takeshi Kaneshiro ‘Meet Joe Black’ (japanese version)
Today will be a long day at training and that basically sums up what I will be doing today so there’s nothing much to talk about hahas, except for the fact that the competition is only next weekend and I will probably be just going there to have fun. Tomorrow will be a dilemma though: to go prawn fishing, nua and cabal at home or to go training again? Monday’s simple: with nana – chan 
An exhausting week at work was topped off with a meaningful learning experience with the director, where I learned from the perspective of a director. Much more to be learnt in the months ahead, but it is still something to look forward to (:
這是我離開的第一個星期六晚上的
淩晨三點鐘
剛幫朋友解決了懊惱的問題
（屁啦，自己都沒解決自己的問題還去幫別人幹嘛
只會對自己難過些）
一個人在路邊徘徊
累弊了頭有點痛
（是舊病又復發了嗎）
點了第六根煙，點燃了空虛和寂寞的夜
暫時把心情放空
回想起一下
逞強的笑顔
隱藏了心裡想說的話
答案並非是真的
只是因爲要讓你好過些
煙頭已盡
黑暗的夜逐漸將我併吞
期待黑夜過後一絲的陽光
能融化我心裡的霜
難過 哭過 當力氣全耗光
發現只不過是夢了一場
要相信自己的勇敢
逃出捆綁奔向那一道曙光
**我變出了魔術**
I hope i got the correct colours because my memory might be failing me after another long day at work:
This one is from suntec which is still @ $170
This one is at peninsular at $169 (sbj to less 10% discount) but only US size 8 left
Will still be going around to look for these shoes (and hopefully I’ve got the correct colour)
的確是有點不好過。工作上的煩惱和疲憊造成現在心力樣子 。現在只想好好的坐在電腦面前寫出自己的人文本子。
所謂人走的感情路綫，就是雙方互相體諒，互相包含的奧妙。這種感覺，不是在天涯海角任何小處就能找到的。
這幾天心裏所經受的每一件小事都不僅讓我成熟了不少。一個人能成熟。。。是令人非常快樂的事情。因爲你不但學了個新的東西，你也會了如何應付新的狀況。
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你就是我一直在尋找
那穩穩的燭光
一直照亮，溫暖著我的心房
一直守在我的身邊
只願
我就是你一直在尋找。。。。。
的小兔子。
就像我之前所講的部落上，就是要做你的守護天使。
銀色溫柔的翅膀，包裹著你的心，給你溫暖
在那黑暗中呵護著你，為你照亮出我們未來的道路。
It’s been a lazy sunday morning by far and just finished talking to nana so I decided to blog while waiting for my turn to cabal after ‘Shiyao’ is done. Decided to write about the team’s progress ever since I joined it but I had been procastinating for a long time hah.
The men’s recurve team has been training hard at the 18m dist on the 40cm tgt in preparation for the upcoming SRRR competition while i’ve been shooting away at 70m dist in preparation of the ASEAN University GAMES 2008. The standard men’s team has also been working hard too, constantly striving to attain better scores while my ladies team (aka vivi’s angels) HAHAS had an individual KO yesterday with ALL the guys sitting behind on the grass cheering them on.
You absolutely cant believe the atmosphere. It was like a kopitiam with the 2 ‘uncles’ (AKW and SL) who are commenting on the competition as if it was some hong kong horse betting race and the other guys throwing in funny comments throughout the competition. What was meant to be a winning end for WINNIE turned into a disaster when she missed her last shots and my team FIONA won HAHHAHAHHAS. There will definitely be another face off next week when I have prepared the ‘lottery’ picks.
Team dinner lifted the team mood and spirits, where we were off listening to really talented blind singer. From cantonese to hokkien to chinese to english, it’s definitely no problem for him. Oh yeah I forgot to mention it was at tiong bahru market and we had oyster omelette, char kway teow, hokkien mee, fried carrot cake, chee kuay and the famous lor mee for dinner! (That’s why my mom decided that i should have porridge ew ew ew for lunch)
Somehow, the lousy shooting I had yesterday turned into something of a past in a blink of an eye and there is always that someone there to comfort me when I’m out of form. Even in my frustration you were always patient and was always so encouraging. This sport is very mentally draining I really appreciate it whenever there’s emotional support to take me through my difficult period. Thanks darls (:
Oh, and this is the latest team photo:
(L to R): Uncle Sun (Ex-VP who always asks for kopi when we go for team dinner) , Maurice (F words non stop lol), AKW (Ex-Prez who decided on a string making al career), Wilson (Nomad who always seems so busy with something hurhurhur), Winnie (The Silent Killer who is quiet but will suddenly shoot a ‘X’ and scare the hell out of you), Vivi (Team Capt who is always so ‘ai mei’), Fiona (The Strong Girl who can do her conditioning at home and push her door until it breaks), TC (Always on his LTB Project, with his LTB girls too?), Buffy (Ah Lian. Admit it lah, you cant run away from it), Winston (LingHuChong who always get suaned by the team), Mr Bill Wee (Team Coach + Founder of Singapore Archery)
Missing in da pic:
Auggy (the commando) – so busy with his intern that he wants to jump off his 28th floor office
Tok (Uncle ‘Tok’) – away in china on his BSM and still nursing his injury from muay thai
Calista (the perfect form) – graduated
Yi Ling (‘Da jie’) – graduated and away in Bath with Mervyn
Mervyn (the up and coming archer) – away in Bath with Yi Ling
Gilbert – busy with smusa?
Looking forward to a great summer ahead for the team =)
是我們的紀念日
